I wouldn't change this for the world!!!

Just a quick post from an emotional mommy!!! It is 11:10pm Saturday night. I just got done watching a fellow triplet mom's You Tube video regarding her triplet pregnancy and birth. It made me bawl. There are a whole lot of emotions that it brought back, so I thought I would share of the things.

I think back to what we have all been thru and still can't believe what we have done and made it thru to get to this point: 6 years of fertility treatments/medication/shots/bloodwork/doctor visits/specialists/3 IVF failures/ultrasounds/high risk pregnancy/preterm labor/ bedrest/ steroid injections to help speed up the development of their lungs/week of constantly being checked-monitored/being on 'Mag' to stop contractions/emergency c-section/not being able to see our miracles right away/30 weeker preemies/being discharged and not being able to leave the hospital with my babies/children in the NICU/beeping monitors/ IVs in their little arms/head ultrasounds for brain bleeds/xrays to check lung development/being married to a breast pump/daily phone calls to the NICU/driving 45 minutes to see them for a few minutes to turn back around and drive 45 minutes home/waiting 6 days to hold Alex, 7 days to hold Liz, 16 days to hold Zach for the first time/bringing one home and having to leave the other 2 in the NICU/trying to be a parent when you have no children to show for it/ trying to keep it together at all times pre-babies & post-babies/ and some things I am probably not thinking of right now.

As I watched this video I think of the few things I would change. I would take more belly pictures; I would have stopped working sooner; I would have asked to see the babies as they were pulled from me; I would have like to get more pictures from the O.R. - just so I could see all the people that helped keep our miracles alive; I would love to have recorded those first cries and telling the kids to fight; and I would nurse the kids more.

But all in all I would NOT change this for the world!! It still amazes me that we have triplets!!! I feel so lucky to have our little miracles. I am proud of Jeremy who has stood by me 110%; thru all the ups and downs; never once blaming me for our troubles; for accepting that I did not want to be on the medication anymore and to look into alternative ways to have children; and being my rock. This whole experience has made our relationship even stronger. It has made us stronger individuals as well. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, right?

I look at our kids everyday and those 6 years of hell were well worth it. So everyday I try to do what is best for them because I cannot imagine life without them. I will never take them for granted.

It is now 11:55pm. So this sappy, crying mommy is going to turn off the computer; switch the laundry (there is always laundry to do); take the dog out one last time; put her jammies on and go kiss each one of her little miracles good night as they sleep ever so peacefully.

Love, Jen